A late night visit.

Ah, I love homework. There is something about getting up early and getting started on it. I've always been the type of person that gets up really early on his own to work on some sort of project. It'll either be to do a workout because I've made it a goal yet again to lose weight; or i want to devote more time to reading so I'll do a little bit of that; or just whatever the case may be.

I must admit I'm starting to get excited to graduate; but not for the usual reason one might always hear. It's not because I'm just so sick and tired of the work and work. It's because I haven't been able to spend that extra little bit of time that I have on other things that I want to work on. I used to have the ability to pick and choose. As it has been for the past year now, all my extra time has to go towards homework.

I did make a little bit of time to practice last night on the drums. I spent about a half hour and also used that time to be brutally honest with myself. In being honest with myself I couldn't ignore--based on my experience in the industry--the fact that I most certainly wouldn't hire me. I simply don't spend the amount of time I should on my craft IF it's what I want to do for a living. My commitment level and my expectation level are not on the same level; and they're gonna HAVE to be if I'm going to really really do this and stop fooling myself.

That was the first thing I realized. The second thing I realized is that I am still VERY much in love. How do I know? Lots of indicators abound, but an example the sticks out the most has to do with what I enjoy practicing. The things that I enjoy practicing--every single one of 'em--would likely illicit the response something along the lines of, "Boring."

What am I saying? Am I saying that I feel as though I should only practice something by passing it through the "boring" test. Quite the opposite in fact. See what's happening is this. I love drumming so much and I am so captivated by even its most basic exercise, that I'll practice something, and even though it may be very elementary, it's just as cool sounding to me as if I was playing an "awesome solo."

So, I'm very much looking forward to spending more time on 'em. It's time I actually do something instead of just fartin' around 'em.